A whole new life

Its been a very long time since i posted on here properly. Not sure as to why i am even posting here now though. Could be over the fact that i need to get some words out that havent been able to come out in a very very long time due to some factors of not having that one person that will sit there and happilly listen to your problems without complaint or second thought as to why they are there in the first place.

Its been a very long and hard yet INCREDIBLY fun journey. I have found pride, strength, power, love, care and also aggresion management in myself that i never thought i would need or even want in any matters, these have been used in many many ways that i also never thought would have been possible when it comes to people that hate me, love me, or even both.
Those that love me can have all that i can give in the way of care, respect, help and more for the same in return. Those that get on my nerves and cause trouble time and time again can prepare for something that is NOT what they would expect of me.

I have also jumped from friends to friends since the chocolate night. Learning from mistakes and also to why people dont like what they dont like and to why the world is to what it is. Only the best of friends will stick around for people that they care about if they have a reason to. If there is no reason to stick around and try to be friends with that person, dont even both otherwise its a waste of time for them as well as yourself. Just get out what you want to get out then and there.
I still have many friends that are great to hang out with and talk to, peopel that make me laugh and those that hurt me well as well as i do to them. but there is no reason to why i shouldnt be their friend, i have learned to forgive and forget those that deserve it.

Also i have taken some interest in some great music that has taken me places that i never thought were possible and to see people that i never thought would be my type, but soon i absolutly adored and cant stay away from when all goes to hell, it releases all hell and i come back to life feeling alive.

Ever since i started this blog, i felt nothing but the need to post things that are negative to get attention, soon i learned thats not the way to get it. Those that are closest to me will realise what is us and ask me no matter what situation im in. These are the less likely people that i suspected as well.