One of the things that i hate most about it, is that you go get pissed hard out with your family and friends, but when it comes to doing that with me you make up excuses such as a head-acke, feel sick, sore back, then you go to sleep leaving the night seeming pointless after ALL the hype you spread about it.

I just wanna get trashed but can't without someone else to make it worthwhile.

Fuck my life...

My youtube account is disabled and i don't know why

FOR FUCK SAKE!#!%!^

I have never been so upset and pissed off at the same time, over a bloody website too!@#!$

Welcome to my Revival!

A few notes to start me off

#1. I laughed when i found out she removed me off facebook

#2. I laughed even harder when she said she doesn't care about my pathetic life anymore.

#3. I can't get over how much smarter i feel now.

#4. Being free from high school drama has certainly gotten me out of the shit hole.

#5. I no longer like high school kids, they can all get fucked.
#6. I feel wanted, loved and people are so much more interested in me now!

#6. As true as the above are, my loyalty still stands weather she likes it or not.

Onto the main part of everything!

Although i was at work, I had probably one of the best days i have had all my life! 
You are so awesome, i can't get over how funny and awesome you are, how can i not like you and not have spent time with you since i first met you? I just can't get over how much i miss and love you right now. You are so great  to me and that makes me wanna do anything i can for you.


Also that Asian chick that came up to me today and said how handsome and funny i was after just hearing what i said to my partner and couldn't help but laugh about it, she was so funny and i couldn't help but laugh at everything she said, not because of her accent but because she was trying to be so flattering and get me to go into the movie industry.


This has made me look into it and start wondering if i should start a course or something on it as i have actually always wanted to do such a thing but never did it due to the fact i never had the idea that i was a good looking guy with talent, for the past 14 months i was convinced otherwise and thankfully that has changed!

Everytime i open this link up, i can't think of anything to write about. 

Whats the point these days when no one reads them?

! You make me feel so alive !

^  ^

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FUCK MY LIFE

 

You know what... fuck it... im gonna go get them and do it.

So sick of this resisting smoking now.

Experiencing January all over again.

Still under stress from 2 months ago, it's been going non-stop and a breakdown is just around the corner.

What should i do? I want to keep everyone and keep them happy, but no matter what i do i can't do that as keeping them happy makes me sad and if their sad i stay sad, what should i do?

I keep pulling out my phone to text you, to see if you're okay, to see if my fuck ups has pushed you away too far this time. 

I keep wanting to take the bus to Newlands instead of Lower hut just to see you one last time, to see you smile, to hug you one more time.

But i don't know if i want you want to anymore. =(