I'm through with standing in line
To clubs we'll never get in
It's like the bottom of the ninth
And I'm never gonna win
This life hasn't turned out
Quite the way I want it to be

(Tell me what you want)

I want a brand new house
On an episode of Cribs
And a bathroom I can play baseball in
And a king size tub big enough
For ten plus me

(So what you need?)

I'll need a credit card that's got no limit
And a big black jet with a bedroom in it
Gonna join the mile high club
At thirty-seven thousand feet

(Been there, done that)

I want a new tour bus full of old guitars
My own star on Hollywood Boulevard
Somewhere between Cher and
James Dean is fine for me

(So how you gonna do it?)

I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

[Chorus:]
'Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars
And live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars
The girls come easy and the drugs come cheap
We'll all stay skinny 'cause we just won't eat
And we'll hang out in the coolest bars
In the VIP with the movie stars
Every good gold digger's
Gonna wind up there
Every Playboy bunny
With her bleach blond hair

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels
Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes
Sign a couple autographs
So I can eat my meals for free

(I'll have the quesadilla on the house)

I'm gonna dress my ass
With the latest fashion
Get a front door key to the Playboy mansion
Gonna date a centerfold that loves to
Blow my money for me
(So how you gonna do it?)
I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame
I'd even cut my hair and change my name

[Chorus]

And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and today's who's who
They'll get you anything with that evil smile
Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial, well

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I'm gonna sing those songs
That offend the censors
Gonna pop my pills from a pez dispenser

I'll get washed-up singers writing all my songs
lip sync 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong

[Chorus]

And we'll hide out in the private rooms
With the latest dictionary and today's who's who
They'll get you anything with that evil smile
Everybody's got a drug dealer on speed dial

Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar
Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar

I can't even go to my hometown without finding something that reminds me of you.

Nor can i do anything that enrages me of the one that i can no longer stand.


I need to move somewhere else...

Out with the old in with the new.

It's time i started sparking my life up. instead of being so set on goals and being a good boy, im changing heaps and am going to give myself a new identity almost and start having more fun.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010 1:59 AM

You were right this time.

I've officially given up trying and not gonna bother listening to you say you wanna set things right now.

You certainly know who your friends are when you do something completely unlike yourself and stupid.

January 1 2010

I'm gonna make this a year to remember..

I'm not drinking this year! 

hah, that worked out well...

Ipods...

"Since i can't sleep lets put some sounds on..."

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away...

"Argh... change songs..."

I’m lonely here tonight
Lost here in this moment
Time keeps slipping by
If I could have just one wish
I’d have you by my side

Oooohh I miss...

"oh ffs..."

I'd never sing of love
If it does not exist

But darling,
You, are, the only exception

"wtf? is my ipod against me or something?

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see?
You belong with me

"ARGGH! Last time!"

Now I will tell you what I've done for you

50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented...Daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again... 
 

"ah.... much better..."

Bringing a new meaning to 'Fuck My Life'

I can't walk around without looking like a crab with my really sore legs.

My brain is under too much pressure to cope with the slightest thing going wrong
( like me tripping over as soon as i get to work)

Yelling at my flat mates telling them to shut the FUCK UP when they were in the lounge playing soccer at 11pm at night.

My emotions are uncontrollable

My feelings are unpredictable

Just lost my best friend and probably ONLY friend.

And I'm waiting for the abuse to start flooding my phone.

See the way i see

Hearing and seeing what people are like can be quite deceiving, it can cause you to get the wrong idea about someone even though you may think you know them well.

I wrote this to show what i see in people when i think about them and what i have done with them over the time i have known them.

Try not to take it too literally as descriptions of people are hard to write about on a keyboard but this is something i have wanted to blog about for quite some time.

These individuals were picked from the top of my head otherwise i could write for days on end.

Written in Alphabetical order.

Allanah
I thought leaving this one till last would make it easy but apparently it made it only that much harder to right as there's too much to write about without making the other blogs seem disfigured.

I have known her for a year, or 6 months really... but in those 6 months she was a very happy and social girl that had no interest in anything other than having fun and drinking alcohol which soon turned into something that quite a fair amount of people didn't like which is actually what someone else predicted.

Regardless of all the arguments, conversations being ignored, awkwardness meeting randomly in town after not talking for ages, huge discussions about what has happened all this time, trying to forget that she wasn't even CLOSE to even an msn buddy on the net..etc.. i can't bring myself to say 'No', because unlike some of the messages i have received, I haven't given up but I'm not going to make an effort to say 'Yes' because after all i haven't really done anything wrong.

Ashley
She is a very loyal, dedicated, sweet and lovely girl she is. Although she lives in a house smaller than most people that i know, it doesn't seem to get to her and in good and bad ways and always pushes towards something she wants to do or purchase where she stands on her own two feet like the little soldier that she is.

One of the most music addicted people that i know where she can tell the exact track and album name a say is without reading it on her ipod, she has some amazing talent and i have faith in this character that she could do VERY well in the music industry with a little push in the door .

Connor
Back when i first met Connor i didn't like him that much since he usually got most of the attention, but i have come to know him as a great guy that likes to have a good time him his mates and of course with his girlfriend of which i respect him a LOT for not letting her disability getting in the way of him liking her; i may not know what it is but that doesn't matter one bit.

Although he does tend to smoke weed and be probably one of the coolest people i know ( which isn't a bad thing ) it doesn't really bother me that much to know that the weed is illegal after hanging out with him one night at my 19'th drinks. It doesn't effect people that much with side effects just used as a... relaxer i think after hearing from a few other people about it and it's not like I'll avoid him for this.

He's a good man and people seem to get the wrong idea about it, but i got your back bro.

Eric
My fellow Australian mate, not that i have spoken to him that much over the year that i have known him threw his ex-girlfriend Allanah. He does have a very friendly and happy personality with a little bit of rage mixed in there.
In some ways i could see him being either an explorer or a DJ at every party in Australia bringing the party to life with his sound systems.

One of these days I'll probably go to Australia to catch Eric up with him and have a blast over there when things aren't so messed up and i can actually afford it haha

Jason
Seeing the world through someones eyes is one thing but seeing past all the emotions and built up grudges is something that takes a fair amount of time to ignore when it comes to seeing who someone really is.
Writing this in one of the most calm ways that i can, what i see in this boy is someone that likes to have mature fun with drinking, driving around and gaming with mates ( i think ).

I've probably only hung out with him 3 times in my whole life and probably had more arguments than compliments with him, but even after all that, i wouldn't claim him to be someone i would avoid while walking down the street.

Johann
Probably one of my oldest mates he is where we used to be best friends. i still haven't forgotten what primary school was like with red alert drawings on long pieces of paper which we both competed with Tesla coils and structures from command and conquer.

He seems to be a very butch and fun individual now which isn't something i thought he would ever be, but after 12 years or so, it's almost as if your meeting someone else that you never knew and reminding each other of stuff you always did together and having the biggest lol's about it.

One day I'll over there in Australia draining beer bottles with my good ol buddy and never forgetting that this guy is a fucken legend.

Krystal
One of the saddest girls that i know probably, the saddest but that doesn't make her one of the most pathetic or stupid. I may not know many people but i know for one thing that if she put in a bit more effort to seeing the good side of things she could become a very happy person.

I lived most of my life previously thinking that i was a very shy and pointless person to everything, but i soon learned after meeting someone to takes everything and see the funny side to it where it's either a small object or a large object with heaps of tenticals.

Nikki
I've been debating weather to call this high pitched person a girl or guy. The name may indicate a girl but the full name of Nikki could be either Nickolas if he/she is a guy or Nicolette if their a girl. Nikki claims to be a guy with a real hot chicks voice which does everything girly including baking, washing and all sorts.

-I'm not convinced-

Regardless of this little joke i still find Nikki to be one of the happiest people that i know. Yes even more than my big sister Trish as Nikki always posts stuff on facebook where he/she is a very funny person and is having the time of their life every day with their parent, friends and over family members which he/she has proved back in the day over the microphone which gave me the BIGGEST lols of my life.

yet another Legend to add to the list, we all love yah Nikki.

Page
Not sure why I'm written her in this, i don't know her that well but I'll try my best to write as much as i can even if this isn't read by anyone.

From what i know of her, she is quite a mature person that works the weirdest shifts I've ever heard of as well as going to school, socializing and baby sitting for people in her free time.

I may have only of hung out with this person maybe 3 times in my life, but all those times she was probably oen of the most mature people I've met that still goes to school and hangs out with quite a few immature people.

Still not quite sure why i put here in this blog but it's still another name to the list.

Felep
This guy is a bloody legend, back in the day when we first met i thought he was a bloody sick and disgusting guy talking about all the perverted and horrific things that he could think about; although my opinion has changed SLIGHTLY about him, he's still a SUPER weird guy but i have seen his nice sides when it came to private chats.

After all the weird talks about fleshlights and other adult toys and how many girls you have slept with ( including his sister ) i wouldn't consider him a freak of nature, but someone that loves to joke aroudn about just about anything to have a laugh, even if a few souls get scarred in the proccess.