The real people

Well now that was most certainly an amazing 21'st celebration! Spent well an truly over a grand on prep for the house with booze, food and a couple games. Took $300 to town and spent half of it on shots for myself and a couple other people. Got plenty of kisses from other people, most are from other people that were in town and were told from other people to kiss me which was an amazing feeling being kissed out of nowhere.

Two of the most biggest disappointments about it though would be for the speeches, having only 3 people say even something small about being thankful to have me as a friend or to even know me, that meant more to me than the other people that sat there saying nothing. The other downside was probably the lack of music, was too quiet for people to even hear once people started enjoying themselves.

All in all I will REALLY remember the people that went and made an effort, certainly showed me who are my real mates, and the ones that are only using me due to not having many friends and stickign around because they can.

Thank you buds! :)

Drink the problems away

I can't keep doing this. Almost 8 months of celibacy, very little reason to drink... hope gets restored and all of a sudden it is all destroyed in one night from one message. Good bye resolution, hopes and future thinking.

Although I will say this. My one goal atm is to get my guitars engraved in honour of those I have ALWAYS cared for x

Every possible minute

Flyleaf - Again

I love the way that your heart breaks
With every injustice and deadly fate
Praying it all will be new
And living like it all depends on you

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
And only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

Love that you're never satisfied
With face value wisdom and happy lies
You take what they say and go back and cry
You're so close to me that you nearly died

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
And only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

They don't have to understand you
Be still
Wait and know I understand you
Be still
Be still
Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
And only surrender will help you now
The floodgates are breaking and pouring out

Here you are down on your knees
Trying to find air to breathe
Right where I want you to be again
I love you please see and believe again

Here you are down on your knees again
Trying to find air to breathe again
Right where I want you to be again
See and believe!

Self Defence

I see everyone fighting, pushing, struggling, grieving and crying over things that I can help with easily by a simple few words or actions.

But this isn't something that I should be helping with unless it is asked of me.

Fighting our own battles allows us rely on ourselves for support and decision making.

Secretly I sit here feeling their pain but refusing to join in unless help is asked of me.

This also comes into order of people taking my advice as hard as it is... that's when they start taking order into their own hands.

Sometimes I wish someone would just run up to me and hug me tightly for no reason at all.

Exercise

I don't think I have sweated so much in years. I can feel the pain coming but its not stopping me!

Ignorance again

Couldn't be more true.

Too much to think about

!AHHH !

Planning a 21'st and trying to get people to go isn't easy, very little notice now but I have a venue at my old house that was offered TO me and now gotta organise food and transport out of there and other stuff as well???

BLAH!

MY BRAIN IS NOT MEANT TO MULTITASK!!!

Least suspectedT

The least suspected people can turn your LIFE into something else.

Ignorance