Taking a step back

Sometimes in life we are required to make sacrifices. Changing our mind spontaneously even though it's one of the most difficult decisions that we have ever made. Although we have our minds very much set to a direction, the thought of changing our plans seems like a step back in our experience, this leads us to think that we have not achieved but fallen further than we have ever been.

This thought is poisonous and can lead us towards more procrastination and can stop us from moving towards our goals in life. The thought of us loosing the time that we spent on countless projects, goals or work being dragged away from us as if it was all just an imagination. This is a terrible thought to keep stuck in the back our our minds.

Over the last few months, I have lost a lot of plans, projects and goals that i was working towards. This was devastating to me as now I am back to square one working towards something that will not be what i was originally working on. The most disappointing part of this event is disappointing my fans that have been patiently waiting for something to be released, and now that all files and work is lost, this pulls my enthusiasm down into starting a new project.

One of the hardest decisions that i have personally made, had almost torn me to shreds. Changing a years worth of planning by saving every scrap of money that i have had, learning a whole new language, living in a flat that i have dreaded since day one, and studying full-time. These have all been completely wasted and i felt as if i was doing the wrong thing and that I had let not just Sharon down, but myself and every friend that i have in Wellington. I still feel drowned by this move but am soon realise when university starts in a couples months time that i will thank this move of letting every single person that i know

Although the phrase that is commonly used amongst people known as "Shit happens". These people obviously have not experienced a pain that is not driven into their motivation bringing their creative level down. In fact this is one of the worst phrases to use on someone as it's showing a negative aspect of the situation and will not push anyone further to achieve their real goal.

One advantage of taking a step back in one of these areas in not only the project zone, but in the job industry as well is that it has shown me how far i have grown since i first started all of my projects. The knowledge that i have now will not be extinguished by something as small as a power surge, or a change in flight plans having me loose my job. But now i have an opportunity to start all my projects from a much better perspective and achieve something that i never thought was possible when i first started. So to end this brain-dump, i will say that i do not consider this to be a downgrade in life, but and opportunity to start something new and work on it in a respect that will be finished faster, be a much better product and to show what i can really do.

Taking a step back?
I think it's more like stepping to the side so i have more room to work on the real things that matter.